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Heart Of Crystal

Heart of Crystal


What is Your Heart REALLY Made of?
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posted by Kailun @ 3/31/2004 07:07:00 PM 0 comments

An Untold story

Its 2:30am and today is gonna be my medical checkup, its a long time since i really blogged here. What i am going to say is about a girl which i m friends with since sec 1. Dont really know who is she during secondary school till sec 4 when we are graduating then started communicating and knowing her. She was my sec school best friend's ex during our time in swiss cottage. Dont know why but i think its curiousity which brought me to knowing her further.

I remember a night when it was one of the first phone calls i made to her, we spent about 5-6 hours chatting non-stop. that was my record for talking to a girl on the phone. roughly chatted from about 11pm+ to 5am+ in the morning if my memory doesnt fails me. we chatted and talked about everything under the sun, its like compressing what we may say to each other or know about each other for 4 years into 1 phone session.

After that i asked her out for movies and going out together. Do i like her? honestly i dont know man, why do i talk to her? i think its cos i wanted to find out more about her. why do i go out with her? cos i want to see her. why didnt i woo her? i think its cos she is my best friend's ex at that time and i dont wanna lose my friend or it may be awkward if i do so. why do i think that way? cos i wasnt even sure about my real emotions what did i do after that? she called me to chat at night sometimes but i just couldnt concentrate and feel comfortable talking. :\ so i decide to stop and turned a cold shoulder but still maintaining the friendship which i treasured.

am i a weakling? why couldnt i just make up my mind, know how i feel, know wat i wanted? why am i writing all these? i guess its because i treasured her deeply but didnt really know how to express myself. am i really sure i dont like her? i think its more like i want her to know that i treasure her very much more as a friend. i gave her presents every year without fail and i only wished to get her's once in my birthday. why? cos i only wanted someone to remember my birthday. someone whom i treasured to give me a present.

thats why when i told mx my bday and she gave me a present though i dont know her well made me felt touched and thought that she was a nice person. but in the end? i found out i was deceived. was it taste of own medicine? i think it was me being gullible that let everything happened this way.

posted by Kailun @ 3/30/2004 02:24:00 AM 0 comments

^^ whats love?

You are attracted to those who have split personality, like cold as ice on the outside, but hot as fire in the heart.

In the process of courtship, the approach that would make you feel irresistable is moods-swing, blow hot and cold in love, vacillate.

The impression you would like to give to your lover is optimistic.

What you hate most in your partner is that the person is ruthless, cold-blooded, and/or ironic.

The kind of relationship you would like to build with your partner is one which make you feel warmth and in-love always.

You care about the society and morality, you won't do anything wrong after marriage.

You are quite pessimistic, you don't think happy marriages exist anymore nowadays.

At this moment, you don't want to be tied down by a steady relationship, you just want to flirt around.

posted by Kailun @ 3/28/2004 09:33:00 PM 0 comments

Muahaha Pluck Chicken Hair...

Pluck Chicken hair lol

posted by Kailun @ 3/25/2004 01:38:00 AM 0 comments

ME!

How evil are you?

okok this is quite expected :( but why put a barney pic wtf?

posted by Kailun @ 3/23/2004 10:45:00 PM 0 comments

I am Naruto...

Which Naruto Character are You?
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posted by Kailun @ 3/21/2004 02:35:00 PM 0 comments

The Eye 2

watched the eye 2 today. :D not bad lol. pei pei and madelene can be seen scared quite stiff. nice plot, nice graphics. 100% disgusting *pukes* real nice one. so wat time is it ? *grins*

posted by Kailun @ 3/21/2004 02:42:00 AM 0 comments

"SOMEBODY YOU LOVE" and "SOMEBODY YOU LIKE"

> > Know the difference between "SOMEBODY YOU LOVE" and
> > "SOMEBODY YOU LIKE"
> >
> >
> > Just in case, once in your life, you were
> > confused?????
> >
> > "SOMEBODY YOU LOVE" "SOMEBODY YOU LIKE"
> >
> > In front of the person you like, your heart beats
> > faster.
> > But in front of the person you love, you get happy.
> >
> > In front of the person you love, winter seems like
> > spring.
> > But in front of the person you like, winter is just
> > beautiful winter.
> >
> > If you look into the eyes of the one you like, you
> > blush.
> > But if you look into the eyes of the one you love, you
> > smile.
> >
> > In front of the person you like, you can't say
> > everything on your mind.
> > But in front of the person you love, you can.
> >
> > In front of the person you like, you tend to get shy.
> > But in front of the person you love, you can show your
> > own self.
> >
> > You can't look straight into the eyes of the one you
> > like.
> > But you can always smile into the eyes of the one you
> > love.
> >
> > But when the one you like is crying, you end up
> > comforting.
> > When the one you love is crying, you cry with them.
> >
> > The feeling of like starts from the ear.
> > But the feeling of love starts from the eye.
> >
> > So if you stop liking a person you used to like,
> > all you need to do is cover your ears.
> > But if you try to close your eyes,
> > love turns into a drop of tear and remains in your
> > heart forever ...

posted by Kailun @ 3/14/2004 05:21:00 PM 0 comments

BIG BANG!!!

wahahahaha nice wig yes? ^^ this happened a few days ago when my friends and i went to perform our rock and roll throughout ngee ann poly. when we saw the alfro hair and specs, we just couldnt resist and decide to play with it and take photos. wahahaha this is so rox!!!the hair so big makes you feel very shiok, when you dance you can really feel the attention and sensation!!! yes you have to try it!! your image totally changes and you are instantly a STAR! :D

p.s. maria paiseh for "injuring" ur head. hope u dont become this hairstyle after that "attack". :D

posted by Kailun @ 3/13/2004 01:01:00 AM 0 comments

BAD <我的错>

飞机已离开机场
你选择了前往你的方向
不再迷惘
忘了我们爱的过往
忘了我给你的伤
学会坚强

从前的我不懂你牺牲多大
为我失去朋友不讲
还放弃了所有梦想
觉得没怎样
不会将心比心去想
让你慢慢慢慢失去了希望

能不能够再给我机会好好的爱你
我会仔细的聆听
你对我说的一言一语
我会学会去控制脾气不让你伤心
对你好好的去珍惜
请你相信我的心还是爱你

我想再重来一次
回到过去弥补你的伤
没那种事
怎么做才能够停止
后悔竟伤你如此
不再放肆

为何总到失去才懂的难过
当你在我身边的时候
总是为我默默守候
都是为我的错
错过这难得的拥有
就让你爱我的心慢慢溜走

能不能够再给我机会好好的爱你
我会仔细的聆听
你对我说的一言一语
我会学会去控制脾气不让你伤心
对你好好的去珍惜
请你相信我的心还是爱你

posted by Kailun @ 3/06/2004 11:48:00 PM 0 comments

WO SHI LONG!

You are Form 5, Dragon: The Weaver.

"And The Dragon seperated the virtuous from
the sinful. He tore his eyes from his sockets
and used them to peer into the souls of those
on trial to make a judgement. He knew that
with endless knowledge came endless
responsibility."

Some examples of the Dragon Form are Athena
(Greek), St. Peter (Christian), and Surya
(Indian).
The Dragon is associated with the concept of
intelligence, the number 5, and the element of
wood.
His sign is the crescent moon.

As a member of Form 5, you are an intelligent and
wise individual. You weigh options by looking
at how logical they are and you know that while
there may not always be a right or wrong
choice, there is always a logical one. People
may say you are too indecisive, but it's only
because you want to do what's right. Dragons
are the best friends to have because they're
willing to learn.


Which Mythological Form Are You?
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posted by Kailun @ 3/04/2004 12:46:00 AM 0 comments